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Hiatus.

Hey guys. Sorry for not updating lately. I’ve been so busy with school during weekdays and work during weekends. So basically, I have no more time for myself and updating this blog. I am still deciding whether to keep my blog, make it just a place for my reblogs or just simply let it hang around. 

Hopefully I’ll have the time to change everything when I get back. I’m getting tired of looking at my layout now. I really need a new one.

Ayoko Na.

Semi-Tagalog post ahead. Sorry.

Nakakainis. Ang sakit sakit na. Ayoko na mabuhay sa loob ng pamamahay na ‘toh. Buong buhay ko wala akong ninais kundi mapansin ng pamilya ko lahat ng mga pagsisikap ko sa buhay ko. Pero sawang sawa na ‘ko. Pagod na pagod na ‘ko. Minsan ginusto ko nalang lumayas kaysa tumira sa pamamahay na toh. Mas gusto ko nalang mag-isa kaysa masaktan ako.

Ilang taon na ‘kong nagtitiis. Ilang taon na ‘kong umiiyak mag-isa. Ilang taon ‘kong kinikimkim lahat. Bakit ganon? Mas napapansin nalang nila ‘yung mga pagkakamali ko kaysa sa mga pag-pupursige ko? Wala na ba talaga akong nagawang tama?

Porket sabihin ko lang nararamdaman ko, bastos na ‘ko. Sabihin ko lang opinyon ko, singit na. Porket gusto ko lang maging masaya at magmahal ng taong mahal ko, mali na.

Come to think of it, kahit kailan hindi nila napapansin mga achievements ko. After kong magpaka-hirap gumawa ng group projects, nag-dedefend ng investigatory project after school, nag-papractice para sa performance sa foundation day ng school, at gagabihin ako ng uwi, pagagalitan pa ‘ko. And after all my high marks in school, I never heard a “congratulations” or “good job” man lang.

I never felt that I was loved by them. Sobra man para sabihin, but it’s what I feel. Gosh. I’m so teary eyed now, I can’t even bear to finish this post.. :’(

A Very Productive Summer.

I was so busy working for the whole summer that I have neglected this blog and didn’t notice that school is fast approaching again. I have forgotten the other things on my summer checklist. Hahaha! But I am still very happy that I have earned big during summer. I already earned about CAD$1000 already. Approximately PHP42,000. :)

As for me and my boyfriend, it has been a roller coaster summer. We had misunderstandings but I’m still glad that I can still call him mine. And for good news, his parents already know about us and we’re both glad that they super approve of us. Half-legalized, baby! Plus, we already reached our 8th month. Thank God. :)

Anyways, it’s still my day off tomorrow. So I might do some bloghopping and catching up. :)